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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:14

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But it wasn’t much.

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He resisted the act ,that day.

I was very sick at this time too.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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Im still living with it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My life is so biszare .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

So, i spoilt her more .

Why do I feel so lazy every time I get into my room?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Put me off passion for life!!

I never cut or harmed myself..

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Ive learnt so much.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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Especially a lifetime of it.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Why did i forgive my father ?

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

All the time i was locked up.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I was scared of men, in general

Comes on , in middle age.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

It was going to be , some day.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

What did i know ?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I write beautiful poetry .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

We were not on the streets..

I couldn’t, believe it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I have no regrets .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She married twice! .

We all went to grammer schools

I could never make a relationship work though!

I said to her

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But, we were locked up after school.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

One cannot live in the past .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

(And it was in our own minds.)

She was in good health!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

This is soul school!.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I don,t even have a pension.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

So whats the point in blame.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I was seconnd youngest,

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She loved him until the end.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Who then, do I blame.?

But ive been too sick for many years..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He knew the spot.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

When she asked me how she looked .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She wouldn,t have been !

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I waited trembling.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was 9 years of age.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Would this be the day?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My family never makes their pension either.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I think the readers, may guess!

She found it foreign!.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And i lived it daily.

I will be 64.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)