Logo

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 12:46

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I was scared of men, in general

Do you consider yourself pretty?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Scientists find a boulder weighing 2,645,547 pounds that was washed inland by an enormous tsunami - Earth.com

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Especially a lifetime of it.

I think the readers, may guess!

Trump Biopic ‘The Apprentice’ Dominates Politically-Charged Canadian Screen Awards - The Hollywood Reporter

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Is spinach easy to grow?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Ive learnt so much.

Backstage Report On WWE Raw Talent Being Discussed For Worlds Collide Appearance - Wrestling Inc.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Why don't I want to talk to my girlfriend when she loves me a lot? I feel bored.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

BTS’ RM and V Discharged From South Korean Military After Completing Mandatory Service - Rolling Stone

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Why are Christians quick to say that there are a lot the gay Christians that exist NOW and use that to pretend that Christianity is just loving to gays when the last 40 years of my life they been horrible?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I was 9 years of age.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Why are people so rude to debt collector’s? I am one and I am so tired of being mistreated. We are under paid and then have to deal with the most ungrateful, and disrespectful people. We aren’t customer service. Don’t get mad at us because YOU owe.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She found it foreign!.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

New $800 Blood Test Measuring Proteins to Reshape Longevity and Personalized Medicine - Business Insider

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I don,t even have a pension.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Put me off passion for life!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My life is so biszare .

But, we were locked up after school.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Who then, do I blame.?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

So whats the point in blame.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Why did i forgive my father ?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Would this be the day?

My family never makes their pension either.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I said to her

What did i know ?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She was in good health!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I waited trembling.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

This is soul school!.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She loved him until the end.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We all went to grammer schools

I was very sick at this time too.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

When she asked me how she looked .

One cannot live in the past .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He knew the spot.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was seconnd youngest,

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She married twice! .

As i do to all so called friends.?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I will be 64.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Comes on , in middle age.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He resisted the act ,that day.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But it wasn’t much.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

(And it was in our own minds.)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She wouldn,t have been !

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I write beautiful poetry .

It was going to be , some day.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But ive been too sick for many years..

I could never make a relationship work though!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I have no regrets .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Im still living with it.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I couldn’t, believe it.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

All the time i was locked up.

We were not on the streets..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And i lived it daily.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

So, i spoilt her more .